does love exist??™

2008-12-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

Tdy went to orchard wif family. so bored.
Had dinner dere in the hotel. So ex de.
Den jiu went walk walk le.

No go training tdy again. Really no mood lahs.
Oso dont tink i can play well le. No energy to do thngs
dis few days. Felt like quite dying le.

Forced myself to update dis a foot stepped into the coffin blog.
Tink it would kick the bucket sooner or ltr bah. Coz really no
time to update delor. Nid come back to woodlands here.

Erm cont wif my normal blogging writimg style, its still sad n emo type.
Not becoz i enjoy writing dis kind of stuff. But my life is really lack
of happiness n laughter. Still waiting for the person who will bring me
those to come to my life. Pls come quick. Lols.

Anyway take cares eveyone.

2008-12-03T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today de training very bo liao..
Play half a match then 3v3 for a long time.
Tomorrow going Shuqun sec for friendly match.
Actually don't want to go one, cos I don't like those training and I don't want to be in main 12.
I rather Derick be in main 12..

I don't feel like going to the training!
I want more time to go out..

Then went swimming with Chinleong, Yonghan and Jonathon.
They at swimming pool there kua zhabor lorhs..
Kidding about taking one of the girl's number,
Then saw that the girl's mother is also there.
And Chinleong saw that the girl's mother is his mother's very close friend!
Lucky he didn't go ask lor, if not very awkward..
And the girl's mother didnt' see him.. Heng ah.

Very hungry whole day didn't eat anything except instant noodles..

2008-10-27T15:47:00.003+08:00

Gotten out of 2/4 le dont think will miss ba..
Coz still same sch n things shld b just the same ar..
Only sad things is i n zp, yh, sebas, iggy may not
hang out as often..

Fri nite granny went to hospital for surgery,
i oso duno wad illness she get.. I nv gotten so worried b4..
I realised dat how important my family is to me n
i cant afford to lose dem no matter wad..
Den saturday afternoon when i visit her, she still in
the icu ward.. It breaks my heart seeing all the tubes
inserted into her throat.. ><
Everyone was so depressed including
me.. Fortunately she got betta today n sent back to
normal de ward.. (:

Muz thnk mel trying to cheer me up, it did help a
little.. Although now still a bit worried bout granny
bt overall was quite relieve now..

Thnks god for letting my granny stay.. N hope
dat she will get well soon.. Love her always.. [:

2008-09-02T23:06:00.004+08:00

Nth to upload oso..
Dis few days i m.i.a sia.. locked myself at hme..

Dont even feel like gg out even training no go oso.. haix
no mood dis few days n things seems boring n dull.. i tot quite a lot..
i decided le my world will not revolve around anybody,
bt only myself..
sometimes make some changes to life may not be bad though..
i think i will stay at hme for dis whole week ba, i nt around,
even air will be fresher to some ppl..

Watched a show which i found a few lines quite erm i dunno how
to describe it lahx.. one quite pessimistic it says
'some things are just not meant to be' n other one i find it quite
direct n touching.. The guy just asked the girl,

' Can i keep YOU??'

Its like can i? I dont think i hav anything else to write bout le n
i dont wan to listen to the song 'Im all about u' again!
Goodnitez to all..(although not many will read)

Signing off,
Cas™

2008-08-24T16:47:00.002+08:00

after a long long time im posting again.. eh ytd had friendly wif queensway sec.. nv lose to them b4 bt dis time we draw so sian diao.. coz tee hao n thomas not there den played til very luan.. haix.
Interhse vball oso lost in first round how to cor me cheer up.. Got cheated duno no rotation den we go rotate dats yy lost to gary team.. wad the.. still got scolded by yeo tupid hecon.. 4demerits le lehx..
yy she dun wan go retire kip coming out hai ren...

2008-05-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

Dont feel like posting le sia.. very sian lor..want to watch movie
den everytime no time de lor..results so bad still got mood to watch movie lehx pro mahx?
My life is getting more n more colorless nth works anyway..
nth new nth fun.. Jux the same..Is dere any thing dat can help me carry on
wif this god damn boring life? Donated money to the si chuan n the other cyclone
country which i forgot le.. Lots n lots ppl donate money to let dem carry on wif their life
but with their loved ones gone could dey still possible to live? Or can dey carry on wif their
life using the lie dat if the dead saw dem dey wont b happy? When dey r not dere at all anymore?
well dats not up to us to decide.. Shld i let myself keep on falling or pick myself up n carry on wif my life? Even if no one cares bt at least me, myself shld care.. Coz dis is my life n everything in
it is bout me.. No one else would even bother isnt it? Well sometimes when uu r alone uu really could sort things out..
i do not care if anyone read my posts coz this is the way i express myself, not for anyone bt myself..
Bt to those hu will read, i still will thnks dem even if im not sure at all if dere were any...
Anger vent, feelings expressed, time for me to go.. I noe all tis do not sound like me..
Mayb i hav a split personality ba.. Who cares.. hahax

2008-05-18T15:04:00.002+08:00

sianx..b'day over le..older le nid to grow up le lor..haix
anyway no big deal lucky ytd escaped frm bash..hahax.. Hey james, not so easy to bash me
wor..lolx..Btw thnks to all tat had wished me happy b'day..n those who did not...Argh..hahax jk
lahx noe uu all not on purpose de..Bt i dont wan to b older!! Hahax..nth else to write le gg to
learn play beach volleyball soon le.. surey would b fun de lor.. xP

2008-04-02T11:03:00.002+08:00

Lalala...nth to post..so for fun..At art nth to DO..
erm... tmrll jiu hav south zone competition wif zhong hua le..
a little bit worry n excited oso..if win jiu final lose jiu either 3rd or 4th sia..
although still in to national bt still got diff de loh.. VERY SIAN LEHX..
exam coming le den the maths dont understand de lor.. stress sia..haix
btw getting ready to die le ba..sobs..hahax
dis post shld b dere quite long ba..wont update dis days le..

2008-02-17T13:44:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA.. after so long finally can touch com le..
hmm gort anything to update? i dont think so leh.. how? nvm i can do wad i always do write rubbish.. hehe
n the hu hor lyke her jux zhui her lahx no scare i support uu de.. uu 100ppercent can de
gogogo.. (:

feel lyke watching movie lehx.. bt either no movie to watch or no one to watch wif.. all very busy nowadays bcoz of their STEAD!!
Lolx.. not fun liao..i oso gort mine.. THE POOL TABLE lor.. hahax lame lol..
anyway happy most important everyone dont emo le hor, (including myself of coz) :P
now i addicted to a song cor wo ai de ren.. damn nice de lor..hehe

2008-01-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

well quite sian actu when sch finally reopen..
everything in order no surprises everything is still the same..
same classmates same teachers same environment..
try hard to get in a relationship though bt to no avail..
well its true hu will lyke a guy lyke me anyway..
try to put up a strong front when she reject
bt only found out ltr dat i am deceiving myself
to the gal, sry to fan uu..well hope uu will b happy..
i dun tink i will try to find another one when she still in my head now
bt at least i hav some friens :)
Thks uu guys for reading anyway..
nitez to all..

2007-12-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

eh nth to post lehx..haix lost to xinmin on friday lehx damn it..
haiis quite sad lorhx.. saded..
nvm we all lose together hahax :D

hahax eh my sis siao liao..XP
eer nothin to post liao hahax..
okay goodnite.
sweetdreams to all..

signing off ;
casper >.<

2007-12-07T00:39:00.000+08:00

hahas posting in the middle of the nite..i really nth to do lehx..
how does it lyke when uu really lyke sumone..is it true dat uu would do anything for her juz to let her b happy??does it really dont matter how deep she hurt uu??
well really dont noe yy would her smile n tears affect uu so much so much..
if uu really lyke the gal will uu b happy if she is happy bt wif another guy??does she meant so much to uu dat every emotion of hers affects uu so dearly..makes uu difficult to hate or even love??is hope really lead to nth in the end??is dere really true n innocent love??if dere is n is happening to uu, well believe me, uu r a blessed one..

well okay i nid to go to bed cant imagine spending the whole nite thinking bout dis..i may really go insane..
anyway thnks for reading nitez..

2007-12-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

well..back frm china le..it is a fruitful trip though..learn quite alot lyke their culture n well found out wad i needed to improve on my volleyball skills too..quite tiring though..well feel so happy to b back to Singapore, miss lots of food here..well home sweet home!!

2007-11-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

well my first post in this blog..quite boring actually lor..
erm juz boring